5.19.2009

Grateful


I am grateful tonight. I am grateful for all the support we are getting from family, friends and new people that we have met. Our families always know what to say to keep us hopeful and they have no idea how much that means to us. Our friends are helping us sort this out and doing their best to do everything and anything they can to help get us out of this mess. And for all that, I am grateful and so very thankful.

I have to think that everything happens for a reason. I have to believe that God would not have us in this situation if we couldn't handle it. My Mister is healthy, our families are well, and we have each other. A house is just a house. A very expensive house, but still just a house that may or may not make it. And whatever happens with the house is something that we will just have to live with. As long as The Mister is by my side I know we can keep facing whatever comes out way.

We will get through this. We learned a big lesson and we won't make this mistake again. I promise you that. Cross my heart and hope to die...

If it means we scale back, we scale back. If it means that we don't get to do what we wanted to do, we don't do it. I would rather have everything done right and by the book and maybe not get our "dream house" because our sanity is much more important than that. Being able to sleep at night knowing we have nothing to worry about, beats a second bathroom, or tile, or adding a hallway any day of the week because nothing is worth our health.

I am exhausted. I haven't slept in months and I pray that this is all over soon. All I want is for this to be over. I want my life back. I just want to move into my house!!!!